Happening Survivor Amy S. was kind enough to share this very moving and inspirational poem with Philly Happening readers. We hope that Amy’s words move you the way they have us, offering inspiration, support, empowerment, understanding or whatever positive emotion you take from her words.
I cry sometimes when I am alone; Wondering if one day I will be gone
I feel like I am always weak; at night he tells me in my sleep
That my life is full but incomplete
He starts off asking how I am; and then usually takes me by the hand
He says that one day he’ll see me soon; but he sounds broken and out of tune
I usually wake up confused; I am both hurt and bruised
I didn’t choose you; you chose me
Why couldn’t you just leave me be
I feel inadequate; you could never imagine it
After being empty for so long; I had to bid you farewell
You are not special; you are not powerful; you’re awful
You have taken parts of me; that used to be happy
You are done here; I will no longer live in fear;
When will you take me; will I ever see: my girls grow up; but then I think and stop
I will be free of all disease; I will wake up and feel at ease
You will not have all the control; you will give me back my soul
I embrace you and I uplift you
You have been my inspiration; for a life to live in celebration
I am no longer weak; I am strong; you will see just where you belong
You are relentless
You are powerless
You are nothing
I didn’t choose you
You chose me: You should have just left me be
You will eventually start to see
That I am no longer empty
I will be free of all disease
I’m feisty; I’m fueled
I’m pulled to live and believe
Never again being naive
Just as I said you chose me; and now I am living cancer free
I will not let you destroy me; I will not let you break me
I am standing tall but slowly rising; I will be forever thriving
I will never just live with you
Instead I choose to live through you
I didn’t choose you; you chose me
And now you have to live with me
Amy is a survivor of 4 years after beating stage 4 breast cancer. “I don’t express my feelings very well, I bottle up; So writing is how I express myself.” Amy is a warm spirited individual who enjoys a lot of family time and time with friends. Saying it all helps her live life to the fullest.
With her poetry she hopes to inspire others affected by cancer and let them know they aren’t alone and that keeping a positive outlook will help them live a long time. “Attitude is everything.”
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